classy with a hint of cigarette.

Amendment One has passed in North Carolina.

wickedclothes:

wickedclothes:

Same-sex marriage is now officially banned in the North Carolina State Constitution, as well as civil unions and domestic partnerships.

FOLLOW-UP: You can, however, still marry your first cousin.

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i just need to have a meaningful conversation with someone.

i feel like I’m gonna explode.

I’ve been laying here for 5 hours. so alone. for the first time in my life i feel so lonely.

an email i wrote to a long lost friend

Aron,
Its funny, growing up I expected to lose contact with people from my past. You’re
one of the few people still in it (in a way). You’ve always been like an older brother
to me (even after Jon left and you left). You’re insightfulness and willingness to care
rubbed off on me in some ways. 
Sometimes i sit and think about randoms stuff, some people tell me i think too much.
But i don’t always just “think” sometimes i like to remember. I remember that you were 
my first crush. (haha.) and i never let you forget it. I also remember breaking my collarbone
in your front yard because I wanted to play football with the boys. 
Times change, and so do people. I don’t really know where Im going with this email,
but i figured id write one to you. Id like to think i turned out to be this amazing person
with a bright future. But when things get rough, its hard to be optimistic. I know
im gonna do something great with my life (not make world peace or cure cancer) but something
great that will touch the lives around me. I haven’t figured out what could be yet, but i know it.
Ive made some bad choices and wrong decisions, and aren’t I suppose to learn from them all.
Maybe I’m too hard headed and stubborn to completely learn, but oh do i feel. Mom says my biggest strength
is also my weakness. I always forgive and care entirely way too much. I understand people
have flaws (myself included), and why not love people for it anyways, right?
I don’t even know if I’m making an sense. Sorry.
Sometimes i lay awake wondering, about nothing in particular. Just wondering. 
Am i pretty enough? Am i funny? Do i say and do the right things? Am i smart?
I seem to always “fall in love” and then get crushed. Im not a hopeless romantic, but
Im beginning to give up. and not just on “love” about everything.
Once again, Im trying to stay positive and optimistic. 
Sorry for rambling. I miss you. 
Cali

i just wanted to be enough for him. 

but i wasn’t. 

single again.

im an idiot.